Year 2009... Comes to an End

Year 2009 has come to an end. I hate my year 2009. It has brought me a lot of unfortunate events even the last day of year 2009. So many things have happened during this year. I am not sure whether i am looking forward to year 2010.

I feel so worry and confuse now. I am afraid year 2010 will be worse than year 2009. Too many things have happened this year until today. There are certain things which i can't accept but i have to accept them no matter what.

The happiest moment that i have in year 2009 was i finally graduated. Not only that i get 5 cute furballs accompanying me. In this year, i have met a cute man too.. But, riceball is still the best ! He is not my dream man but he is the man that i love most. Forever and ever !

Riceball has been going through thick and thin with me all these while. Without him, i don't know what i should do. I am a blur and stupid person at times. But he is always there to guide me and giving me advices.

I hope in year 2010, i will be able to have a happy year with him and many more years to come...

I'm Lost

I feel so lost. I know the reason but i am not allowed to say it out because it's a secret. My darkest secret. A secret belong to me and riceball.

I trust no one. I can't tell anyone. It's too private. Not even my family members are allowed to know. It's because everyone is too sarcastic. Everyone is so hypocrite. It makes me hate to talk to anyone of them.

I am glad and happy my dearest riceball and my five little furballs are always by my side supporting me. Without them, i don't know what i should do. I love all of them. I really do..

I really appreciate for having them by my side when i need them the most. Though my little furballs can't talk to me, at least their characters can make me smile the whole day.

Maybank 24-hour World Class Customer Care ... ABSOLUTELY NOT !

Maybank customer service totally sucks ! i have called them more than 15 times using my handphone and no one is picking up my call at all ! Where is the first class service !? This is totally sucks !. It's not even Xmas yet and they are already not working? This is really terrible !. It's not acceptable at all ! I do not have much money in my handphone to keep calling them. Each call cost me around 50 cents. What the hell is that?

I have forgotten my password and i need them to reset and this is what i get. Stupid bunch of people working in Maybank.

Damn lazy ! They even dare to say that they are providing world class service. This is terrible. Really terrible. I am gonna to cut my card after my easy payment scheme for my computer. I am not gonna to use their service anymore !

I feel Suffocated

Recently, i feel very suffocated in the office especially after lunch hour. I feel airless. No airflow at all. It makes me want to puke especially after lunch. I'm not sure whether it's due to the smell of the chemical but i can no longer take it anymore.

I think i can't work long anymore. The smell is too terrifying. It's too overpowering that gives me headache at times. I need air. I feel as though i am lack of oxygen. I can't seem to breath properly.

I feel so suffocated that i went to the toilet to throw up. I think it's time for me to look for alternative. I can't stay here any longer. I can die anytime. I need a break !

Golden Triangle Restaurant

Last Friday we went to Golden Triangle for our dinner. This is the first time we went out for dinner after so many years of cooking at home. We opt for their all-you-can-eat promotion.

I think we have ordered around 9 - 10 dishes and i would say the food is quite nice. But their clear soup tomyam is really very spicy. You can feel your tongue is burning. Their seafood is not very fresh though especially their prawns. The fishy smell is there. And the size of the prawns are quite small. We also tried their famous Choo Chee fish. Deep fried fish laden with coconut curry gravy. I love this dish. The fish is fried until very crispy. It's nice eaten with white rice.

We also ordered mango salad which i love it alot. Sourish and a bit spicy. Their lemon spicy squid is much spicier than their clear soup tomyam.

I also love the toufu pancake and the yam cake. We also tried their pandan chicken. I would say quite tasty but i was too full that time so i didn't really eat it. The chicken meat which they use has a lot of fat wrapping on to the meat. You have to remove it before you can it else you wil find it very oily. As for dessert, we ordered their famous tham tim krop. It's very nice. i really love it. I should have ordered 2 bowls instead of one but i was too full that time that i couldn't even put anymore food in my mouth. I might throw up anytime.

If you are a big eater, u can opt for their all-you-can-eat promotion. If you are not, then better don't because the serving is quite big.

宫心计

I am sure many of you have watched this TVB drama. I am not able to put the title in english because i have forgotten the title in English. It's too long..

I love this drama. I love to look at how the women fight among themselves. It's not the normal catfight but full of schemes and plans that can make you die !. I like to look at how the women strived for their best to be on the top. They can be very unscrupulous even to the best friends. Well, that's life. Even in reality, humans are like that too. Only the top and the best can stay on top. The minor ones are always below them.

I would say some of the actresses and the actors acted very well in the drama. I loved to look at the baddies because they are showing the true self of the humans when someone is greedy for power.

But the ending is always the most boring part. The baddies always failed and the good ones always win. No such thing for me.

Some People...

Some people are so hateful. Some people are plain insensitive towards other people's feeling. I really hate them a lot. There is such person in my life and she is someone close to me. I have developed 'i-hate-to-talk-to-you' feeling for her. I tried my best to suppress my real feelings whenever i talk to her.

She likes to complain to me about something she has yet i do not have and yearn to have at times. This is really hateful. I always have bad thought. At times, i hope that something bad will happen to her so that she will shut her mouth off. I know i am bad having this kind of thought but i just couldn't help it. I just want her to learn her lesson and appreciate the things that she has now that GOD has given to her and not me. SHe has just taken it for granted. I just hate her. I hate her proudness. I hate the way she complains. But there is nothing i can do. She is someone close to me.

I feel inferior everytime talking to her. I think i will make myself MIA soon.

You Are Not Working Hard Enough

How would you feel when someone said this to you? "You have not work hard enough for it". "You do not have faith that is the reason why your wish doesn't come true". If i'm in good mood or being polite, I will just laugh it off or nod my head and walk away. If i am in bad mood, i will tell you to fuck off !...

What do you mean by not working hard enough. No faith and etc? How do you measure it? Tell me? I can't even measure it myself you can measure it for me? I salute you if you can do so.

When someone is in difficulty or facing any problem, what they need most is love and support but not wet blanket or some idiots to make a joke out of it.

I hope all these people can leave me alone. I really can't stand them at all !. Yes, you have everything you want. All your wishes come true because you work hard for it. We are not blessed and our wishes don't come true because we are lazy bunch people who have no faith in God and not work hard enough. Happy? No?

Palace De India.

I went to palace De india restaurant recently for lunch. We order nasi briyani with tandoori chicken. No picture is taken because i am not a camera person. I love the smell of the nasi briyani because they added butter at the bottom of the hot plate. The smell of the butter plus the nasi briyani really very aromatic. The price is RM30 for two person. We also ordered mutton but i don't really love it because they mutton taste is too strong for my liking.

I would recommend to those who want to try northen indian cuisine can come to this restaurant. The price is a bit on the steep side but overall the food is not disappointing. In fact, it's quite good for me.

Why Me?

Have you ever asked urself this question ? "WHY ME?"

Whenever i face any problem or sadness, i will ask myself this question umpteenth times until i am too exhausted to think about it. Of all people, why must it happen to me? Why ? Why me??

I don't even know how to answer and sometimes i really hope someone can answer me that. Is it because i am a bad girl / because i am down in luck that's why it happens to me.

I feel very angry and i feel life is so unfair. I start to hate everyone who is better than me. I start to pity myself.

But now, i try to control myself. I stop asking myself "Why me?" I know no matter what i said or how i vent my anger, it's not gonna to change anything. I just need to accept it with whole hearted.

I can't be sad and unhappy all the time. I need to brace up. I don't want to make the people around me feel sad.

Whenever i feel down, i don't ponder "why me?" question anymore. Nothing is gonna to change. Try to think about the happy times instead. Smile to myself and say. At least i am still alive and free from sickness.

Disappointed With Pos Malaysia

Until now i have not received my parcel from Pos Malaysia. The parcel has already reached the post office at my region but they don't intend to deliver to me because i am always not at home due to work. Post Office is opened on every Sunday in my area. So they can always send to me on Sunday.

Yesterday they gave me a call. They want me to go to their office to get the parcel myself ! MYSELF ! Why i need to go at the first place? I have already told them that I am at home on Sunday. They can kindly deliver to me on Sunday but they refused to. So i asked them to just deliver the parcel to Post Office in the town so that i can get from there as i don't know where is their head office. I don't want to drive blindly around the area just to find their head office.

I even have to ask them to issue a call card for me to claim my parcel. I waited for the call card yesterday and it was not delivered to my house. Then how am i suppose to claim my parcel??

I called them yesterday in the afternoon whether they have sent the call card to me and their reply was no. The call card will only be sent to my house today. Well, let's see whether they will send the call card to my house today.

All the items in the parcel are my hamsters' beddings. I need it for my hammies. They need to have a comfortable bed. Without it, i can't help them to change the bedding. They can't sleep on the newspaper. It will dirty their fur !!

What to do... i need to trace my parcel again today. Later i need to call to the post office to check whether i can claim my parcel tomorrow. I don't want my parcel to go missing :(.