Should I Continue ?

I am not sure whether should i continue with my online business? I am so financially tight now. How i wish someone could loan me 10K so that i can continue with my business. I love to have my own business. I want to stay at home to take care of my little girl but it seems so difficult now. I do not have enough cash to take some new products in for sale.

Should i just give up now. Definitely i would be very sad but i am sure i will get over it very soon.

Should I or Should I not Say ?

I am in dilemma now. I am not sure whether should i say or should i not say first? So many things are in my mind now. I don't know what to do or what i should do.

I think i need to make sure everything is fine and well and healthy before i say anything.

Arrghhhh !!!!

I miss her.

I missed her ever since i saw her in the pet shop. She is a brown colored hamster. Whenever i look at the hamsters in the pet shop, i feel very sad. I feel sad because they are treated badly by the shopkeepers. How could they put the snakes directly opposite to the rodents.

How i wish i could be damn rich so that i can buy the whole shops and revamp it. I will throw away or give away all the ugly reptiles. I will import a lot of good products for small pets which are hard to find in Malaysia.

Now, back to this cute little hamster. I am not sure should i buy her or not. I already have 9 hamsters now. 5 adults and 4 teens. They are living comfortably at my house now. They are allowed to walk around in the house during the night. They can roam freely in my living room provided they don't fight. I won't say that i provide them with the best food, but i will provide whatever food i can find for them so they will stay healthy.

I am in dilemma now. If i buy another hamster, which mean i need another cage, i need another wheel, i need another water bottle which will cause me another RM100++.

I will return to the petshop again next week. Let's see whether she is still there. If she isn't, then that means someone must have bought her home/she already eaten by the stupid snakes in the shop!. I really wish she can find a good home soon.

The Saddest Day In My Life

Update: Both peanuts passed away yesterday. Both were cannibalized by their mother. I am totally devastated. Though i am sad and angry but i still love their mother very much.

Today marks the saddest day in my life. One of my peanuts has passed away. It was eaten by its mother. I was totally shock. I was totally devastated and sad. I never know she would eat her own baby. Her own baby !. There were suppose to be a pair of peanuts. I was very excited when she gave birth to two of them. I was everyday looking forward to seeing them growing. But i didn't know that the peanut's lifespan is so short. It has only lived for four days and it was gone. I am not able to see it anymore.

I hope the only survivor will be able to survive till the end. I really hope i am able to see it grows bigger each day. I really hope i am able to carry it one day in my hand.

I am confused

I am very confused now. Who is the latest deputy dean in my university? There are sudden change in the deputy dean. If i did not check on the website, i wouldn't have known.

I just need to get a signature but everything is so tedious. I hate taking leave. I do not have so many annual leaves. I need to keep my annual leave for my other purpose. Sigh.... time passes so fast. it's May now. another new month. Yet i have not achieved anything.

Hopefully before end of May, i will be able to complete my Master process. It's a tedious process. I will not want to study anymore after going through all these tedious processes.

I feel bad that i keep taking annual leave. Plus i don't have many annual leaves per year. What if i have other emergency? What should i do? I feel so lost now. I don't feel like keep taking leaves. I need to keep it for other purpose.

What should i do ?

Should I or Shouldn't I?

Sigh... I am not sure should i or shouldn't i take half day leave? I need to go back to uni again to sign a form. Though it's not compulsory but it involves money. If i sign it, i will be having some money but i need to sacrifice half day of my leave. I don't have so many days of leaves anymore. I only left 1 day leave. If i take, i am only leave with half a day leave. But if i don't take half day leave, i need to give up the sum of money.

I am really in dilemma now. So Should i or shouldn't i?