I can never be one.....

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I'm Feeling Down.

I am feeling really down now. Don't ask me why. I'm in terrible mood. Not even a mood to type. I feel like a clump of shit now. :(

Dr. Jart Pore-X Peeling Gel

I love to use peeling gel once a while because it really can remove the dead skin on your face leaving your skin soft a smooth.

Recently i bought a peeling gel online called Dr. Jart Pore-X Peeling Gel. What i like about this peeling gel is, it doesn't cause any sensitivity to my skin compared to Laneige strawberry yogurt peeling gel. It doesn't have nice sweet smelling smell like Laneige. In fact, it doesn't have any smell at all. It's not too harsh on your skin too. Usually after using peeling gel, definitely one or two pimples will pop out on my skin but this Dr.Jart Pore-X Peeling Gel doesn't cause any bumps on my face.

This peeling gel is suitable for sensitive skin as i have sensitive skin too.

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Jealous Or Envy

Do you know how to differentiate the difference between Jealousy and envy? I do and i really do. Whenever i am envy of someone, I still feeling happy for them but when i feel jealous of someone, the feeling of anger and hatred is there. You hope that the person would fail one day. Have a bad fall or whatever. I will start to make comparison. Why she/he able to achieve it yet i couldn't. I know it's bad feeling this way but who isn't? Be frank. I know everyone has that kind of feeling before.

I know i shouldn't feel jealous of one's happiness or achievement. It's totally wrong but i just couldn't control my feeling. I feel down and sad the whole time and try to find all kind of bad points or weaknesses of that person but deep down in my heart, i know this person has no flaws at all. Some people are born to be lucky. Just like some people are born with silver spoon.

The feeling of jealousy is there, i will try to avoid that person totally. No contact whatsoever because i don't want to make myself feel even worse. What's wrong want me to congratulate that person. You may as well kill me.

I have this kind of feeling recently. I know i shouldn't but i can't control myself. I start to hate myself to the extend i don't know how to laugh anymore. The bitter feeling is always there. I try to drown myself by watching tv whole day long to wipe away the feeling of jealousy. But after switching off the tv set, my mind starts to work on its own again. I just can't stop myself.

I hate it. I really hate it. Not even riceball can console me nor make me happy.

Sad & Miserable

I feel sad and miserable today. Everyone has their own happiness why it's so hard for me to find my own happiness? I have tried to remain calm and try to forget but i just couldn't let go. It's hard to let go. It's hard to act as though nothing has ever happened. It's hard to put a smile in front but it's terribly hurt inside.

I have tried many ways to make myself happy but i just couldn't smile at all. I become bad-tempered. Unhappy. Hard to get along with. I don't want to talk nor face anyone at all. I just want to be alone. All alone without any accompaniment.

Part 2 of Poslaju

UPDATE: Good ! This time they give me a call directly instead of making me worry the whole day. So early they call me. At least i have seen slight improvement. But don't say too fast first. What if............... (touchwood !)

I have another parcel with poslaju again. And i don't understand why recently Poslaju never update their parcel status online. It's not as efficient as last few months where they diligently update the parcel status.

Yesterday, I went home and found a slip from poslaju to take the parcel on my own. But before getting the slip, i already went to poslaju and get it myself. What about this time round? I need to call them again? So sick of calling them all the time.

I think i better think twice before buying anything online anymore. I don't want to feel worry all the time. Though the things are cheap online but i am afraid that i will have heart attack due to poslaju inefficiency. sigh......

I have seen their notice board yesterday i saw 5% of misplacement of parcels. Which mean they send to the wrong recipients ! Oh gosh ! that's a lot ! How can they misplace the parcels? Don't tell me the address is wrong? This is dangerous ! I feel at risk whenever sending or receiving my parcels from Poslaju now.

You see, i need to call them again at around 10.00am to track my parcel whereabout.

I think this is really the last time i am going to purchase anything online. Stop first before having a heart attack :(

Poslaju Sucks !

UPDATE: Where is my Parcel ??!!!!.. No call at all from Postman of PosLaju. Call them they said already pending for delivery. But until now 3++ no call at all from the postman. This is the first time poslaju so slow. They usually call me at around 11am. But now already so late. Where have they send the parcel to??? The item is not cheap ok... Pray God hopefully is not lost :(

Why does Poslaju bother to have the tracking system when you can't even track your parcel's location? I can't even track where my parcel is now. It still pending at the same place and area. So does it mean that the parcel is still at its origin?

is it really that difficult for them to update the location of the parcel? I thought they just need to scan the barcode to their system and voila ! everything is done. It makes you worry whether your parcel is missing or still pending for delivery? No news. Nothing at all.

It's already 9.16am now and still i can't track my parcel. It's still pending in the same status since yesterday night. Stupid !

Update for a while will die is it?

So, where is my parcel now !? have to make a call to the poslaju later at around 11am. >.<

What am i doing ?

I have been asking myself this question many times. What am i doing in the office? i have been sitting in the office with nothing much to do since last week. i feel like a dummy here. I know i should be happy that i have no pressure at all sitting in the office without anything to do yet i still get my salary. This is sucks ! I hate this kind of life. I want to do something whether it's paperwork or just some simple coding. I hate doing research in the office. I have been doing research in the office since last two weeks.

All these while, i just sit in the office to surf the net. It makes me look so stupid. It makes me unmotivated to work at all. My skills start to deteriorate. I want to do something instead of passing my time by surfing the net aimlessly.

I start to hate my life. Boring and mundane. No achievement. Nothing !. this is what i fear most. What have i been doing all these while? Worthless at work. Useless at home !

Burning Flame 3

Finally, i have finished watching burning flame 3. I love this drama a lot. This drama not only revolves around firemen but also relationship, kinship and friendship.

This drama has shown that how love plays an important role in our lives. Love can turn into hatred. Friends can turn into enemy.

The story of this drama more or less also reflects on me too. I am also a very stubborn person just like the second leading actor. I don't easily let go and i'm kinda narrow minded too. It makes me feel very unhappy at times. If you don't let go, you only make yourself feel worse. Isn't it? So, it's time to learn to let go.

At least this drama has a good ending.

Miss Pinky

Introducing my new family member. Ms. Pinky. The cutest friend i ever had. Soft spoken and sweet. What's more it's pink in color. My favourite colour ! :D

Here are some of her photos.Isn't she sweet and cute? Another favourite shot of mine:

DKNY Fresh Blossom

Finally, I have a perfume of my own. DKNY Fresh Blossom. I am really in love with this perfume. The smell is very light and refreshing. The color of the bottle is very pretty too. Pink in color. But it's not cheap at all. RM215 for a 50ml bottle. But it's worth it for me because finally i have found the perfume that i really love.

Review: Cyleina Soap~Black Pearl

I have tried Ah Yuan organic soap from Taiwan and now i am using cyleina organic soap from Philippines. I have only tried one of the most famous flavour which is black pearl soap which is for face.

I like this soap. It doesn't dry your skin at all. It doesn't make your skin feels tight after using it. It helps in whitening but until now i don't seem any fairer. Maybe because i have only used it for 3-4 times.

It doesn't have any strong smell like Ah Yuan organic soap which has very strong herbal smell. It's quite expensive for its size. RM18 per bar. It's only 45 gram. But i am sure you can find cheaper seller online which i am looking for now.

Next, i will try its rice bran soap. They say it's very good for skin whitening. must give it a try tonight.

I think i'm into organic soaps now.

I'm Driving !!

I have not driven for many weeks. I think for few months already. All these while riceball is the one that drives me around. He is the one that send me to work and drive me home. I think my driving skill is getting worse.... My parking sucks. My estimation sucks too.

Hopefully i don't need to drive too frequently..hehehe.. lazy to drive...

Review: Skin79 Oxygen Mask

I have bought a bottle of Skin79 detoxifying Oxygen mask. all you need to do is to apply the cream on your face. Then you will feel some tingling sensation on your face. You can see bubble foam forming on your face. I don't see much bubble foam on my face though. Maybe i put too little.

After 10 minutes, you just need to wash it off with lukewarm water. You will see that your skin is fairer. But the fairness is only temporary effect. After a while, you will go back to your normal skin tone. Abit disappointed. The purpose of this mask is not for whitening i guess... It's more for supplying oxygen to your face. Once your face has enough oxygen, then it won't look so dull anymore. That is only my opinion.

I have already used a few times. But each time i only use a small amount. That's why not much bubble foam forming on my face. Will try to use more next time. At least no pimple pop up after using this product.

Review: SKIN79 Hot Pink BB Cream

Recently i have bought a bottle of BB cream online. BB cream here means blemish balm cream which acts like a liquit foundation but it's better than foundation because it doesn't only hide blemishes but help to whiten your skin, heal pimple scars and even has UV protection.

What i like about this SKIN79 BB cream is, its texture is very light. It's very easy to apply. Even a person like me who doesn't know how to put on foundation can easily apply it on my face evenly. You don't need to use a lot, a small amount will do to cover the whole face. For me, it not able to hide scars that are too dark.

Its coverage not as good as foundation. If you want better coverage, you can apply BB cream and then only apply another layer of powder foundation. That will be perfect.

The color of this BB cream is quite light. After putting on the BB cream, you will see that your face will be fairer but after a while, it blends with your skin color. But i'm not sure whether it able to blend well if you have dark skin. You can apply a bit on your face and see before applying the whole face.

Though it says that it helps in controlling oil secretion but my face still feel oily after 4 hours later. I still need to blot my face with tissue.

If you apply BB cream everyday, it will able to improve your overall skin texture. I'm not sure about this because i only apply whenever i go out during the weekend.

Parenthood Certification

Everything needs certifications now. You need to have SPM certification, STPM/A-level certifications, degree certification, master and so on.

Being a parent also needs to have a cert to prove that you are qualified to be a parent. Why do i say so? Some people can have babies as easy as ABC. One after another each year. Some people have problem even to have a baby. They have to go through all kind of treatments, route just to have one. It's just like some people need to study very very hard just to obtain a certification and some people don't even need to study also can get good results and obtain a cert.

What qualification do you need t o have in order to have your Parenthood Certification? Let's see, I have 3 here:

1. care-free. Stress-free. Worry-free. (compulsory)
Why do i say that? Some people have infertility because they are stressful. That's what we commonly say when someone have infertility problem. Relax Relax Relax. I doubt they can relax when they are having fertility issue isn't it? They need to fork out a lot of money to undergo treatment.

2. Healthy (Compulsory) As long as you are healthy. As strong as a bull, you can have tons of kids.

3. Rich (Optional)
When you are rich, you are stress-free. No need to worry about your work. You can work now and the very next minute just stay at home and rest.


If you fail 1 or 2, you are gonna fail to obtain your parenthood certification. If you are healthy and you are stress-free, even you are not rich, you can have bundle of children. But if you are either stressful or unhealthy, your passing rate will be less than 20%.

So, have you gotten your parenthood certification ?

Unfair Treatment From Tesco

I went to Tesco, Penang last Saturday. I was really very unhappy with their weighing counter service. Rude staff they have.

I went to weighing counter to weigh some vegetable. I queued up according to the notice given at the bottom left hand of the counter. It stated there to queued up from left and go out from right.

I went to queue up and out of a sudden. A stupid malay woman cut the queue by queuing from right hand side. The staff did not say anything and served her first !. I was so angry. Really very angry. And all those stupid customers also queue up from right to left.

Not only she didn't serve me, this is the remark left by her. "Tak faham ke?". Hey ! who doesn't understand here !? I wanted to scold her but i don't want to tarnish my own image. I left.

Just because she is same race as that stupid woman then she served her first? Is this the way? Is this the way Tesco going to serve their customers? I'm not being a racist but this is the treatment i get and this is what happened to me. right before my own eyes !

This is unforgivable ! This is terrible !

TESCO Penang Malaysia better do something about this. You are tarnishing your own image.

Please filter first before hiring anybody to work for you. !