chubbypetsgarden

I have tried buying pet stuff from chubbypetsgarden and i would say that i am quite satisfied with their service.

It's because they always reply my email promptly even though some of the mails are just enquiries. They also send out the item on time and send me the tracking no. after that. Most importantly, they are using Pos Malaysia/Pos Laju... :D...

I hope they will keep up the good work. And i also hope they will have more pet suffs especially for small mammals. I also hope they will replenish some of the out of stock items as soon as possible.

Disappointed with General Hospital

I have been in and out of general hospital all the time for this one whole year. One word to describe: terrible!. I am not only been to 1 department, but i altogether i have gone to 3 departments. The worst department that i have gone to is O&G.

Why did i say that? Too many housemen who are lack of knowledge. Yes, they do not know what they are doing and they are asking so many stupid questions. Some of the answers can be found in the medical records but they are either too lazy to read or they are too blur to realize that the answers are in the medical records.

I have one experience when a houseman kept asking me why my menses are late? How do you want me to answer you? YOu are a doctor-to-be you should know the answer to the question. Why ask me? You don't know, then go home and ask your mother !. And you know what did he do in the end? He simply cancel my menses date stating that it was wrong !. Hey ! who is having period now? You or me? What the heck are you doing? I was shock when he did that. I quickly ask him what was he doing and he sheepishly answered me that the date given is wrong! damn it!. I was so angry that i scolded him!.

I think the housemen are too lazy to brush up their skills and knowledge. They should do more research and read up more before they start their training in the General Hospital? Who are going to suffer in the end? The patients of course. What if you give wrong diagnosis? Who is going to be responsible? Patients are not your guinea pigs. Even animals also have the right to choose the right doctors for them.

I only can say, if you don't have the ability then don't be a doctor. Just because doctors earn big bucks therefore you want to be a doctor?

General Hospitals do have first class facilities, but lousy doctors. Thanks to the housemen and some irresponsible specialists !

Sure-Reach The Lousiest Courier In MALAYSIA

I really cannot stand this stupid courier company anymore !. Item was sent out by the seller on 29th September 2010 and until now i have not received my parcel. I have called them numerous time but they never follow up for me where my parcel is.

Yesterday, their delivery man gave me stupid excuse stating that he didn't know where was my house and asked me to come and get it myself and even dare to raise his voice !. Hey ! i don't pay you to scold me or ask me to get the item myself ! Else i pay for your stupid for what !.

By the way, i didn't choose their service myself. I didn't even know that seller would send me the items using this courier. I thought they are using POS malaysia. And now i need to keep calling them asking them where my parcel is. What the hell is all these?

I really can't stand it anymore !. I think they can change their name from sure-reach to sure-rich because it seems like they like to keep your parcel with them.

Do not give me the excuse of not knowing where my area is. You don't know, then use your initiative to ask around ! Or install a GPS lah in the van, why make things difficult for others?

They are really ridiculous. I have never encountered such a bad service before from other courier companies.

By the way, those are hamsters' food. I think they want to eat it that's why they refuse to deliver to me. Poor hammies.....

Now i am afraid to order from this seller due to the courier bad service. if they are still using this courier service, i think for time being i am not gonna to order from them first until they return using POS Malaysia service.

600cc Food Sucks

I went to 600cc at gurney plaza yesterday. There is only one word to describe the food there. SUCKS !. Not only the food sucks, the price is exorbitant !. I really regretted eating there.

I don't understand why, there are still many people eating there even the food sucks.

I will definitely blacklist this 600cc stall !

I'm sorry

I am sorry for being a bad master. I am sorry for not taking good care of you.

Please forgive me....

It has been sooooo long..

I have not blogged for quite some time. Maybe there are many things which i do not want to reveal here... Privacy is more important for me.

I just hope everything will run smoothly for me. Miss my mama now...

PAYINGPOST AKA BLOGADVERTISING IS A SCAM

DO NOT WRITE FOR PAYINGPOST AKA BLOGADVERTISING. IT'S A SCAM. I HAVE ALREADY REACHED THE MINIMUM THRESHOLD BUT THEY REFUSED TO PAY ME!.

I WILL NEVER EVER WRITE FOR THEM ANYMORE. I WILL REMOVE ALL THE POSTS WRITTEN FOR THEM.

GO TO HELL PAYINGPOST AKA BLOGADVERTISING!

BELOW IS THE AMOUNT I SHOULD GET BY THIS MONTH !

Your Available Balance: $107.00

Your Total Earnings: $107.00

Next payment date is May 01 2010.

Important: When your total unpaid earnings reach $100, we'll send you a payment on the 1rst of the next month. For example, if your total unpaid earnings reached $100 during November we would send you a payment on December 1. If your total unpaid earnings haven't yet reached $100, they'll roll over to the next month and accrue until they meet the $100 threshold.

STUPID PAYINGPOST AKA BLOGADVERTISING YOU DO NOT KEEP YOUR WORD!

YOU CAN TAKE THE MONEY AND GO TO HELL !

I am Paranoid !

I am being very paranoid recently. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so negative recently until i can't have a good nite sleep. I need some help!..

Either i am getting too bored staying at home alone or I have wild imagination. I really don't know. I feel so lost right now and paranoid over slightest things.

I can only keep praying hoping that i will return to my normal self soon.

Ergothioneine from OXIS International

I am sure many of us use a lot of anti-aging products to maintain our youth. OXIS International is the premier provider for a potent antioxidant which is known as Ergothioneine. Actually, this is the first time i heard about it.

Ergothioneine is a super antioxidant for nutraceutical, cosmeceutical and therapeutics. It acts by itself or combine with other natural compounds to improve the body's own intrinsic defenses against oxidative stress.

It able to conserve the level of other antioxidants such as glutahione, vitamin E and C. Not only that it has the ability to combat free radicals.

To read more about this Ergothioneine from OXIS or you are interested in OXIS International penny stocks, you can read from here: http://www.oxis.com. Or you can click the image below:

Should I or Should I not Say ?

I am in dilemma now. I am not sure whether should i say or should i not say first? So many things are in my mind now. I don't know what to do or what i should do.

I think i need to make sure everything is fine and well and healthy before i say anything.

Arrghhhh !!!!

I am worry

I feel worry these few days. But i am not allowed to express it out here. All i can do is keep it to myself until the time is ripe. I feel kind of loss.

I am always feeling worry and anxious all the time. And also nervous especially when i go and see doctor. I don't know what i should do to stop all these feelings.

All i can do is pray everyday. Pray hard. Hope everything will be alright

Eat Healthy for Weight Loss

I still remember I used to be very fat. I think that was 2 years ago. I look fat and plump. Very unhealthy. I did not take care of my food intake. I ate whatever i wanted without thinking of my health. I started to realized i was very fat when i could not fit into a dress that i liked very much.

So i start my diet plan. Actually i didn't really diet. i just change my eating style. I try to eat more vegetables and fruits. As what i know eating healthily can help in weight loss. I think around 3 months later i lost around 5kgs. Of course, other than food consumption, i also do some exercises.

I know some people want to slim down immediately therefore they try crash diets which is very bad for health. I have tried that before and i gave up after a week. It only makes me tired and i don't think i lose any weight.

Some of the mistakes which we commonly made while trying to lose weight are we tend to skip breakfast, or take slimming pills to help in weight loss. I have tried skipping breakfast before, and i was exhausted the whole day.

Conclusion, have a balance diet and do some exercise, i am definitely sure we will be able to obtain the weight we want and have a healthier body.

I hate General Hospital !

I really really hate general hospital. After going there for some time, i really hate their system. I hate the doctors there. Why do they always pass your case around? Why can't we just stick to one specialist? Why pass those urgent cases to those stupid trainee specialists/trainees? The sight of those stupid trainee medical officers make me want to give them a punch on their stupid faces?

Those trainee MO love to act as though they are superior and expert. In the end, they just refer to our previous record written by real specialist. So stop acting ! This is unacceptable !

Not only that, as a doctor, he/she should know how to retrieve blood from the patients but this particular doctor doesn't even know how to retrieve blood. In the end, i was ended with 2 BIG BRUISES on my hand. NOT EVEN A WORD OF SORRY !. This is ridiculous !

They do not have working attitude is really a shame to us. I don't know why do they want to be doctors if they can't even have positive working attitude.

There was this trainee doctor who sigh when he looks at my medical record. Come on! Don't sigh in front of the patients. You look like an idiot to me ! You can't do it, pass it to other doctors. Your are not fit to be a doctor !. You may as well get out from medical field!

I have only seen one thing in the general hospital. Most of the trainee doctors don't even have the passion to be doctors. I don't know why in the first place they want to be one? Just because their results are good during their schooling them? NAH, shame on them!. Not worth to be respected. With this kind of attitude, they can't go far at all !.

That is the reason why good doctors are getting less and less now. Worth to be respected are even lesser.....

Caret Pore Concealing Skin Refinisher

I bought this tiny little tube out of impulse.

I think it is too expensive for such a small tube of pore concealer. RM9 for 3g. I only able to apply once on my face. Well, it doesn't conceal my pores very well though. It doesn't control the oil secretion on my face. My face is still so oily after using it. I thought it able to make my skin stays matte for at least half a day but i was wrong. I think i prefer to use Skinfood peach sake serum than using this.

I will never buy this pore concealer again. It's really waste of money.

BestBuy-World

I went to this website and bought a few items from there recently. These are what i bought including the pouch at the bag.

I am not sure whether these products suitable for my skin or not because i have not used before therefore i bought the trial size. I think it's good to purchase trial size first because if the product suits your skin, you can repurchase the regular size. If it doesn't suit your skin, you can just put it aside without feeling any pain due to wasting too much money on an useless product.

I would say this website service is quite good. They process your order in a timely manner. I bought on Monday and i got it today. But they are slow in replying email. I am not sure why. Maybe they have too many emails to reply.

But i feel that the products in this website is kind of limited. Not many choices. Some of the brands which i would like to try they do not have them. How i wish they could increase the number of brands. That would be good.

Anyway, i would repurchase from them again after i have completed testing the products.

Blacklisted Online Sellers

There is one type of online seller who i hate most. This type of online seller loves to make his/her buyers sound desperate. This online seller doesn't reply your email when you ask for your tracking no. or ask the status of your order. Hey ! we need the tracking no to track our parcel lah. We need to know the whereabouts of our parcel. We are the buyers have the right to ask for it. Why can't the seller directly email us the tracking no? Why want us to pester you all the time just for the tracking no sake?

Now, i don't know where is my order. Though it only costs me RM21 but it's still my item!. I paid for it and i have the right to have the tracking no!. This is really irritating ! Make sure i am able to receive my order today else i am gonna to list your name here !

Naris Up Acmedica Medicated Spots Acne

I have just bought this pimple gel few weeks ago from Watsons at the price of RM46.90. I would say this is a lousy gel for me. It doesn't make the acne subside. The size is still the same even the next day compared to some other pimple gels which can make your acnes subside the next day.

The gel is transparent. It gives you a bit of minty feeling when you apply it on your acnes/pimples. It doesn't dry up your skin like some of the pimple gels. I think it is too mild for my liking. I need to reapply it quite often. I'm kind of dissappointed with this pimple gel because it's expensive yet not effective.

I won't repurchase this pimple gel anymore. I think i need to search for a new pimple gel.

Will post up the picture later on.

Have You Heard of Monrose?

Have anyone of you heard of Monrose skin care? I have been looking for more information about this skincare products but i couldn't find any except for the malaysia's website. Many people said the products are from Germany but there isn't any website that able to prove that this product is indeed from Germany.

This product seems to be very good for oily and pimply skin but i dare not buy because i am not sure what are the real ingredients behind this skincare products. Though the malaysia's website stated that Monrose's products are made of natural plant extract but i don't think it's that simple. I think too many hidden information.

Should i buy some of the products and try? Will it be too risky for my sensitive skin? The products are not cheap. All are above RM100. Must think carefully before you make any purchase. At least they should have sample trial pack for curious people like me to try.

I am OLD !!

I must admit that i look so much older recently. It must be due to all the worries and sadness that i have to face all these while. I look much older than my actual age now. I can see it on my face. Even i myself also feel shock. I really don't know how to beautify myself.

Many people thought that i have kids already. Haha... imagine how old i look like now. Sigh.....

But what can i do? I will just accept it then....

Pos Express: Lazy or Safety

I start to hate pos express malaysia. They are damn fucking lazy. Why do they need to send me notice everytime just to ask me to go to post office to take my things? Can't they just throw into my house ????!!!!... Hey men, i am staying in landed property not condominium, even if it can't be fitted into the letter box, you can throw into my house compound.

Last time they always do that, but why can't they do the same now? Safety purpose? Lazy purpose? They are darn too lazy ! ...

Don't give stupid reason as 'tidak muat'. THis is just a stupid excuse. And now, they don't even write the reason there anymore. Just throw a notice to me and ask me to go to post office myself!. Post office is darn darn far ok! Damn it !

I am not gonna to use pos express anymore. Next time, i will buy a lot at one go and use courier service.

Is Having Babies Really that Important?

I have been asked by many people this question "When are you going to have babies?", "Do you have any plan to have babies?" Well, i don't know how to answer and i am not sure how to answer.

But all these while, i have been asking myself this question, "Is having babies really that important?", "Without children, life will be meaningless or it's not like a family anymore?". Until now, i have not found any answer to these questions.

Many of us have our own perception. Some people by choice not to have kids and some people can't have kids. Before asking them this question, "When are you going to have babies?", "Are you pregnant?", ask yourself this question first, "Are you close with that person?", "Do you know him/her very well?".

Some questions are not meant to be asked. It can be a very sensitive question to certain people. If he/she has kids or she is pregnant, i am definitely sure she will want to share the happiness with everyone of you. So, instead of asking, pray for her. I am sure she will be very grateful.

Review: Beauty Diary Yogurt Masks

I am gonna ban this mask. I just put it on for 20 mins and after removing it, my face felt very itchy. Small tiny bumps start to pop out. And these small tiny bumps can erupt into big cyst acne which i have it now.

No picture for this mask because it's not recommended for me. I think i will try other sheet masks.

Review: Ceutical Jasmine Ice Spring Mask

I am totally in love with this mask. I got this mask from this online seller. It's around RM2.50 per piece. What i love about this mask is, it brightens and smoothens my skin instantly. After removing the mask, i can feel that my skin is smoother and brighter.

Best of all, it doesn't irriate my skin which some masks do.

After removing the mask, i usually massage the extra essence on my face so that my skin can absorb better. If it takes too long to absorb into my skin or there are still extra essence on my skin after massaging for few minutes, i will take a damp clothes to dab off the extra essence on my face instead. I hate the sticky feeling on my face.

Here is the packaging.
There is a lot of essence in a package. If you do not want to waste the essence, you can massage the it on your hands / legs.

I miss her.

I missed her ever since i saw her in the pet shop. She is a brown colored hamster. Whenever i look at the hamsters in the pet shop, i feel very sad. I feel sad because they are treated badly by the shopkeepers. How could they put the snakes directly opposite to the rodents.

How i wish i could be damn rich so that i can buy the whole shops and revamp it. I will throw away or give away all the ugly reptiles. I will import a lot of good products for small pets which are hard to find in Malaysia.

Now, back to this cute little hamster. I am not sure should i buy her or not. I already have 9 hamsters now. 5 adults and 4 teens. They are living comfortably at my house now. They are allowed to walk around in the house during the night. They can roam freely in my living room provided they don't fight. I won't say that i provide them with the best food, but i will provide whatever food i can find for them so they will stay healthy.

I am in dilemma now. If i buy another hamster, which mean i need another cage, i need another wheel, i need another water bottle which will cause me another RM100++.

I will return to the petshop again next week. Let's see whether she is still there. If she isn't, then that means someone must have bought her home/she already eaten by the stupid snakes in the shop!. I really wish she can find a good home soon.

Where on Earth is my Things !!!

I am very very angry today. What the hell are pos Malaysia doing? How could they send my parcel to other city when i am staying in another city? The tracking system stated the correct city but when i call to the poslaju, it's at another city. So where is my parcel now? The parcel is so big yet they can make such a stupid mistake!.

I am definitely sure the seller did not send to the wrong address because what stated in the pos malaysia tracking site is correct. It's suppose to be sent to my city. Poor hammies. When are they able to get their food and beddings? I purposely buy it onlne for them.

Oh God please, don't lose my parcel please. It's not cheap. It's around RM160 for all the hammies' things. They really need. Else, how they gonna sleep. Plus, i bought an expensive wheel for my hammy because her wheel is too small.

I feel very fed up now !

Exfoliater: Yubiki Brand

I bought this jar of exfoliator from a japanese shop in the shopping complex. I am not gonna to give thumbs up for this exfoliator because it sucks!.


To me it doesn't exfoliate to remove the dead cells from my skin. Usually, after using the exfoliater like Dr. Jart Peeling gel, my face will free smooth and squeaky clean because it really removes all th dead cells from my skin.

But this jar of exfoliator doesn't work that way. When you rub it on your skin, it seems like there are some dead cells being removed but to me, it's more like the gel is clumping together forming tiny particles which look like dead cells. I do not have the squeaky clean feeling after using it. In fact, the difference is the same before and after using it.

Therefore, i won't repurchase this exfoliator anymore. Must quickly finish using it because it's not cheap. It's around RM30++ per jar. I need to search for another brand.

Chuncaini - Sheep Placenta Fruit Juice Mask

I have just tested this mask this morning and i have already fallen in love with this mask. With the first usage, i can see some difference in my skin. It makes me look fairer and it does control the oil secretion. I used it this morning around 8.30am and until now my face still looks matte.

It also doesn't cause any allergy to my skin because i have sensitive and oily skin. If i used the wrong beauty products, my face will be itchy and reddish. Definitely, there will be pimples after that. :(
But what i do not like about this mask is, it contains too much essence until it drips. I have to squeeze some of the essence out before putting it on my face.

Here is the masks package.



I didn't buy this mask. I got it free from an online seller when i bought ampoules from her. This is her link.

I think it's time for me to stock up some masks at home.

Who Has the Most Medical Cards?

i think i have the most medical cards compare to my siblings. Everywhere i go, i will definitely bring the medical cards with me in case any emergency happens to me when i go out. Of course, i only bring the core medical cards where the hospitals i often go to.

Let's see how many medical cards i have. I actually have more than 7 medical cards from different doctors and different hospitals. Mostly are private hospitals. A lot isn't it? I think i have met most of the doctors.

I think if i add up all the medical fees, i pay for a car's down payment. Isn't it a lot? I don' deny that i have a lot of sickness who not many people know except for my family members. Of course, who wants to let other people know that you have a lot of sickness? I don't want to be called a weaky.

I hope i will be able to stop collecting medical cards soon. I hate to see the doctors though some of them are good looking and manly. But no, i don't want to see them anymore !

Waste Water Treatment

I am kind of curious how the waste water in our country is treated? Does it involve a lot of hazardous chemical or more towards to environmental friendly approach.

As i know, there is a new technology in the market now which is introduced by N-Viro International Corporation. N-Viro technology is using green technology.
It uses lime and/or mineral-rich, combustion byproducts to treat, pasteurize, immobilize the waste water.

Then, it transforms waste products into a beneficial fertilizer or ultimately creating N-Viro Fuel a renewable alternative fuel perfectly synergistic with the coal combustion industry.

The wastewater sludge and other bio-organic wastes which are converted into biomineral agricultural and soil-enrichment products has high market value.


In order to know more about the N-Viro technology, you can click on the above image to read more about it in detail.

I Though I Will.....

be sad. But i am not. I don't feel unhappy or sad or angry anymore. I am not sure why. Maybe I am not close to this friend of mine gua... Maybe a teeny weeny bit of envy. He has gone into another phase of life yet i am still staying put here...

I cried the whole night yesterday. Stupid isn't it? I was so sad. I was totally devastated and depressed. I feel life is so hopeless. I feel nothing works for me. I know my own health condition. With my health condition, i don't know what is ahead of me. I don't know what my future will be. But what he said is right. Life still has to go on. No matter how sad you are, time is still ticking away. It won't stop because of you. Not that i am not moving ahead but maybe much slower than others. Or maybe i have already reached the ending point but i refuse to stop yet. Therefore, i feel that people are moving ahead yet i am still standing aimless here.

No matter what is it, i still need to brace up. Because no one is pitying you. You have to stand up yourself. Other people can only look at you but they can never help you. You have to help yourself. You yourself have to fight till the end.

Life is Full of Dissappointment

It has been some time since i wrote something here. I feel so down again. I feel so depressed again. I don't know who to turn to and who to talk to. I have no one to talk to me. No one understands how i feel now. Not a single consolation works for me. I just feel lost and hopeless. I don't know how to get on with my life now.

Everything doesn't work out like what i want. I am being pushed around until i am totally fed up !. I feel like an idiot now. I have followed all the instructions but nothing seems to work for me. Wait wait wait. This is what he told me. How long do i have to wait. Everything that he said have given me big impact. It's like a knife piercing into your heart. I start to hate him now. He is the biggest jerk in my life !.If only i could give him a tight slap ! He will never understand the pain and grieve i have to go through all these while. he will never understand unless he is in my shoes.

Aloe Vera Gel

I love to use aloe vera gel whenever i have pimples or acnes on my face. Compare to other pimple gels in the market, aloe vera gel is harsh at all to our skin. Though it takes some time to reduce the swollen / inflamation but it is still very effective. Your skin won't be drying too when use aloe vera gel on the face. I love to apply aloe vera gel on my face before i go to bed at night.

As i am sleeping in an air conditioned room, aloe vera gel can prevent dryness on my skin. Another thing, my face is not that oily anymore after getting up in the morning.

I think aloe vera gel can be found in many pharmacies. Or you can even do it yourself provided you have aloe vera plant at home. If you want to buy aloe vera gel, make sure it does not contain any perfume / flavoring.

The Saddest Day In My Life

Update: Both peanuts passed away yesterday. Both were cannibalized by their mother. I am totally devastated. Though i am sad and angry but i still love their mother very much.

Today marks the saddest day in my life. One of my peanuts has passed away. It was eaten by its mother. I was totally shock. I was totally devastated and sad. I never know she would eat her own baby. Her own baby !. There were suppose to be a pair of peanuts. I was very excited when she gave birth to two of them. I was everyday looking forward to seeing them growing. But i didn't know that the peanut's lifespan is so short. It has only lived for four days and it was gone. I am not able to see it anymore.

I hope the only survivor will be able to survive till the end. I really hope i am able to see it grows bigger each day. I really hope i am able to carry it one day in my hand.

Long Time No Blog

It has been a long time since i blog. Well, too many thing have happened and i don't even have enough time to digest them myself. I think i need to digest them one by one. my year 2010 did not start well, in fact, it's a bad start for me. Too many bad news comes to me at one go between end of year 2009 and begining of year 2010. But i have already accepted the facts and i can't seem to change anything at this moment. Just take a step at a time...

I think i will stop blogging for time being until everything is stable.

Till then.. Bye everyone !

He is a Great Dissappointment

I think whoever reads this post will try to figure out who is this 'he'. Of course, this 'he' is not my beloved riceball. Because riceball has never made me disappointed at this moment.

All these while, i always thought that he is a wonderful person. I always thought that he is my only hope in my life. A person who can change my life one day. A person who can fulfill my wish and dream. But i was wrong. I only realized it when i met him last week. He is not a person who i can look for help anymore.

Before that, i admired him a lot. I felt that he is a very approachable person and ever wiling to help you. But he is not this kind of person. He is no different from any other people. I don't know where has his compassion gone to. When he said this statement twice, "It's unfair for you and also unfair for me', I was totally hurt. The feeling of betrayal is there. I was stabbed in my heart. I totally understand that everyone is selfish. What's more both of us are not related at all. Not even close.

But he is my only hope. He is the only person i can trust at this point of my life. I need his advice. I need his help. I need his support. So now, i feel totally lost and hopeless.

He has truly hurt me. I am not sure whether i will be able to face him anymore. Because after the conversation with him, i just walked away without a word of thank nor a smile from me.

He might just brush it off, but the words that he said, has truly scarred me. Until now, i still brood over it. I still think about it. I have tried to brush it off but it still etch in my mind. In my memory.

If he can't help me, i really truly and sincerely hope that God can help me.

I'm not sleeping well

I am not sleeping well recently. In fact, i didn't sleep well at all. There are so many things in my mind now. I am sitting in the office again without anything else to do. I feel so lost and hopeless.

Every night, i will toss and turn to make myself fall asleep. I dream every night. I didn't have a good night sleep. My eyes' bags are getting bigger each day. My eyes are always tired looking and lack of energy.

Now, i feel like sleeping again. I don't feel like that when i am at home. Maybe i move around and exercise when i am alone at home. I cook and i take care of my furbabies therefore time passes faster than sitting in the office staring at the monitor.

So many things have happened to me. No one seems to care except for my beloved riceball. He is always that supportive and being with me when i am at my lowest point. He is always there to cheer me up. He is the greatest man i ever had in my life.

I wanted to hand in my resignation letter today but my boss is not around today. No, i did not find a new job. I am not rich to stay at home too... It's because i am sick... very sick... I am too sick to even work now. I can't think properly. I have no mood to work. I am lost now... I think my year 2009 ended badly and my year 2010 doesn't start well too...

When you think..........

he is your only hope, he indirectly turned you down. How would you feel?

I feel terribly dissappointed and down now. I feel as though a big stone is thrown at me. I need help but no one is there for me. I feel so helpless and lost. What i need most is support and care but what i get is just coldness and sadness.

He has totally let me down. A totally let down....